The Words That Still Haunt Me!

Can I tell you about the words that still haunt me to this day?

“I never intended to talk to you about Him.”

Those were my exact words to a co-worker named Lauren back in 1977 when she asked me not to bring up Jesus if we went out on a date. At the time, I laughed it off. I wanted her approval more than I wanted to risk her rejection.

And I meant it.

I really never intended to talk to her about Him.

Nine months later, I sat in a friend’s apartment watching TV when a breaking news story came on:

“…Lauren Wagner’s body was found—the 10th victim of the Hillside Strangler…”

My heart sank. My mind went numb. Her face filled the screen, and my words came roaring back like thunder: “I never intended to talk to you about Him.”

And I never did.

That night God broke me. Standing outside the apartment with tears streaming down my face, I felt Him saying:

“Jay, how dare you care more about your image than someone else’s eternity? How dare you bury the greatest gift ever given when souls are at stake?”

It was the night I realized worry is deadly—not just to us, but to the people we refuse to reach. From then on, I made a commitment: if someone gets to know me, they’re also going to know about Jesus. Period.

No more excuses. No more pretending.

Because here’s the truth: I’m just God’s delivery boy. I don’t save anyone, but I carry the Good News—and it’s too urgent, too costly, to stay silent.

Now let me ask you—what about you?

👉 What keeps YOU from sharing Jesus with others?
👉 What fear, what worry, what excuse has silenced your voice?

I want you to be honest with me. Hit the comment and tell me. Don’t hold back.

Your story matters—not just to me, but to this whole Ordinary Christian community. Who knows? Your testimony might be the spark that helps someone else break free from the same chains of fear.

So, what’s holding you back?